Grief and Gratitude, Grok - (A) Rise

[grok]

Feeling a little melancholy this evening. Low level emotional "aftershocks" roll through me.

A busy week with our yearly trade show in town at the conference center downtown. The SecDef and King of Jordan showing up. Busy practicing new people skills.

XW's parents arrived back in town for D18's graduation. They took XW, S13 and D18 out to dinner without warning. Normal.

Aware of interactions with the women at the trade show. ... common male confusion. Was that an indicator of interest or flirty glance? or is she just friendly? If she playfully grabs your hand as if to take the cool vendor swag she asked to see... is she just the social butterfly touchy type or does she find you interesting? (I've heard women are very aware of touching a man, especially one they don't know, so it is deliberate?)

XW brings S13 and D18 home and comes in the house...sits in living room chair. I continue about my evening routine. Grandparents come in the house a couple minutes later. OK. I greet them warmly. I continue my evening routines, set up for tomorrow's work events, and let XW, S13, D18, D20, and grandparents visit for a bit. In half an hour I call for S13 to walk the dogs with me as our normal routine and they take it as their cue to depart. D20 is moody tonight.

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After finishing up I sit at my desk for a few minutes before bed writing this. Playing on the Audio Engine speakers I gifted myself... I hear a song deep in emotion and spiritual/biblical symbolism. A song or poem of struggle, redemption, and renewal. I have some tears.

The Maker - Daniel Lanois

Oh, oh deep water
Black and cold like the night
I stand with arms wide open
I've run a twisted line
I'm a stranger
In the eyes of the maker
...
My body is bent and broken
By a long and dangerous sleep
I can't work the Fields of Abraham
And turn my head away
I'm not a stranger
In the hands of the maker
...

[Outro]
Oh river rise from your sleep

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YouTube provides a sampling of other artist versions with some amazing other renditions. A partial list:

Dave Matthews & Tim Reynolds ( Live at Radio City 2007 )
Jerry Garcia
Dave Matthews, Daniel Lanois, and Emmylou Harris
Bob Weir w/ Dave Matthews Band
Dave Matthews Band | LIVE Performance | SiriusXM
Lanois, Harris, Johnson and Blade
Willie Nelson & Emmylou Harris
Daniel Lanois, Brian Blade, Jim Wilson
Emmylou Harris