Had a great weekend though. Got a bunch of yard work done. H actually mowed the lawn. I honestly wasn’t sure he would. Thought he’s just wait until I couldn’t stand it any more and I would do it.
Some very good friends of ours had a party Saturday night that we went to together. It was weird because I’d catch him looking at me all the time. It feels like he’s going this more. I don’t know, whatever, I had a blast with my friends. One of the hosts kept talking about this group of friends being family. I’m like oh you just wait.
Also had a weird experience with a birthday party. He told me he was going to go play golden tee or wherever it is he goes, I don’t ask, and I told him I was going to the party. He kind of shrugged it off because he’s not a big fan of the bday boy. Kinda made fun at me for going. I shrugged it off. Before he left he told me that if I was still out by a certain time he might join me. I’m like sure right. He actually did. That was kind of weird.
I know he’s noticed the some of the changes I’ve made. He made his side of the bed the other day. Having my morning routine has been huge. Some mornings I really don’t feel like doing it but it makes me feel better.
I think the fact that he acts like everything is normal is making me the craziest. June is right around the corner and I feel like I’m running out of time. He hasn’t brought up meeting with any mediation lawyer and I don’t ask. Just trying to keep my chin up and make improvements on myself.
