Minus the first few years we were together there’s always been something off . Even if I didn’t have proof . That knot in my stomach has been there much longer than this . Threw a few kids into the mix and I tolerated a lot more than I should have and became a doormat . Hence the grow as I call it of becoming financially stable and continuing education because never will I be in that situation again .
I will say I disagree about the kids . They are my number one reason for staying . Trust me I loose many nights of sleep over it . More than I would like to admit . Even taking H out of it , I still loose sleep over them .
You are right . Turmoil of how much am I willing to tolerate . My tolerating level has become almost zero with him .
How do I reconcile with him saying he wanted to be alone and this is a lot of work ? I don’t . That’s him . When things are tough that’s his go to -run and get sympathy . He got very little of that this go around from not only me but family and friends . The less I give into it the better for me .
And yes protective not hard hearted . I take little non sense from him .
In better news - had a nice girl date last week that was very much needed with my bestie . Was nice to get out even with my children checking in every hour .
