Thank you all!! I appreciate your response.

I came to a realisation this week- end while on the phone with my sister. ( not the one Ex told )

[ One question i had for a very long time was: why on earth have they not distanced themselves from him?
Instead, i' m the one who distanced myself from them because of this.]

I called to apologize to her for not being the one to tell her . She answered : " atleast, it was a family member and not a stranger who spilled the bean.

Bingo... he is still family in their eyes. But what about me? What about the pain it causes me?
What about the situation this puts me in? I became an outcast. Maybe by my own doing from distancing but i needed to... for my own health.

It has been awhile since my anxiety kicked in until last week- end.
That knot in my stomach, sleepless night, lack of appetite...
I force myself to not let him have these effect on me. Sometimes i succeed, sometimes i don' t.
Last week-end, i didn' t. I will get over it, i will digest it with time.

Don' t get me wrong, it is not on a regular basis anymore. It is from time to time. (Thank God)

Maybe i needed to find a man to take Ex' s place?
Then, they probably would have separate themselves from Ex.. ????
Lol. Who knows?

Last edited by DnJ; 03/03/25 10:48 PM. Reason: Corrected typo.