Oh how I feel for you with being tired . Sending lots of love your way . You will be a different person and actually already are whether you see it or not .
The are you alive comment …. Your H made , try looking at it a different way . Those type of texts are touch and go’s. More for him to still see if you have your hand on that rope .
When it comes to GAL pick things or people you truly enjoy or something you have wanted to do . My big struggle was GAL . I do not do well nor do my kids with time away and I have that view of they are only kids for a moment . I learned to embrace it . It’s me . I just love on my kids . Little example I travel a lot with my children . I like it . They like it . After BD I had a trip planned prior . Hell would freeze before I canceled on my kids . I hopped on the airplane didn’t even say good bye really and left . You think I texted that man when I landed . Nope . You think I told him I got to hotel . Nope . Eventually I got a mass of texts and phone calls . H was surely shooken up . Did I answer , yup later on . Said kids good . I needed the break mentally . Maybe not DB style but I thought you got everything you wanted . Alone in the house you said you were gonna move out of . You got no one standing in your way . Take anything you like . No argument here I’m not even there . You think he left . Nope . The point is when you get off the rollercoaster it’s not easy , I still struggle most days but just try . They kinda almost have to crash and burn while you sit back just doing you if that makes sense . Sometimes they have to crash over and over again .
I think many of us have felt like a doormat . You are doing really well , give yourself just a little credit . Balance . You can be kind but also have stern boundaries .
