It’s so hard not to be sad yet angry. I am trying to detach, but it’s a process for sure. My H now that he’s started contacting the attorneys suddenly wants to just be friends with me. He’s texting me throughout the day as we always would just a little less frequently, he’s calling me and asking me if he should pick up dinner and just being nicer than he was when we were “trying” to work on the marriage.
I don’t know how to handle this because on one hand I’m being low pressure, kind and cordial. But he’s leaving to go off and do what he wants and leaving me with our kids all the time and all the responsibility of the house. At this point, he’s just providing his paycheck and just wants to be my friend and have that benefit while getting the D he wants. It just seems like why am I doing this? Why does he get all the best of me while he’s just throwing me away? My brain is a mess, but I’m trying to also GAL, not keep convos going when he reaches out, do my own thing as hard as it is.
I feel like I’m a doormat - even if I’m trying not to be one.
