Just wanted to add my own two cents. I have read many or the threads here, I apologize for not replying or giving my support. I'm trying not to straddle the balance of being able to move on and reliving my experience. This board has been a godsend to me and taught me a lot about what to do or not to do in the process.
Id just like to add my two cents now, living in a perpetual state of limbo while it's good to embrace and learn from it, keeping emotional attachments and any other form of attachment, it keeps us stuck in a loop. The reality is while every situation is different, we are all good people here and we came here because we needed help and guidance, when we've exhausted all other avenues of support.
The reality is we cannot fix or change broken people and we cannot break ourselves in the process. Find those who support you and lean on them, surround yourself with family and loved ones. Focus on yourself and work on your own flaws. Whether you choose to remain hopeful of reconciliation or whether you decide to move on. Detaching oneself from someone we spend so much of our lives with is one of the most difficult things you will ever have to do in your life. But never, not once should you ever lose sight of your core values and beliefs, while not everyone shares those same traits, do not compromise those for anyone, its what makes you unique and special. And there are others like us in the world so do not feel like you are alone on an island.