I think it better I go solo to the party and enjoy myself as a confident and principled man who can enjoy my own company and have a great time with colleagues.
I agree.
I am glad you recognized those fleeting “larger than they really are” feelings.
Confident and principled. That’s how I think of you after these years of us talking.
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Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.