Grief and Gratitude, Grok - (A) Rise

[grok]

evening snippet

torn and loose ends

I was making medical appointments with D19 today as she is still scared of Drs. Eye, ENT, Labs, Orthodontist, Dentist. XW used to do ALL of these with the kids as they were during work day hours. Things lost and late. running running

D19, "Dad, we have to do the Ortho real quick. I've about run out of all the retainers they gave me. ... They have to sign off so the Dentist can put in the other stuff."

I look at her for a moment thinking about how long that would be. I ask, "D19, was that about two years worth?"

She says with lots of sarcasm, "Yes Dad, that was when EVERYTHING was dropped."

Oh.

I'm ... still finding and picking up loose ends left ... with my children, with the home, ... and me.

"OK D19. .... ..... I'm .... a lot was .... your mother ... ... I'm ... still trying to do all the things."

small aftershock

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