Thank you for your insight dnj, it is very much appreciated and your advice has always been very succinct.and direct. For me yes i need to see a lot of effort on her part to have any communication. As i habe unblocked her on social media but dont follow her. I am not doing anything in my life for her or for her to see. So today i finally have a fully signed separation agreement and now the house proceeds will be dispersed and financial/legal ties are disappearing.
I actually thought the meeting with lawyer to sign would leave me in a sad state but i found myself later in the evening with a smile on my face. Almost like a sense of relief and a sense of being unshackled from this eternal limbo. Tomorrow might be a different day but clarity is now in front of me. I still miss her and our life together but im glad she is no longer dictating the direction my life takes. Considering i changed continents, started a new life and am now in full control of my own destiny it is a very liberating feeling.
My feelings and thoughts might change but i am no longer at her disposal, but i wont close the door to communicating with her, but it can only happen with supreme contrition
