Love the music you listen to . Many of my favorites too ! Love the 80s . Half my Spotify is all 80s . My kids randomly sing old songs too . Quite cute when people see them singing along too .
Distortion omg yes !!! Watching H slowly clearing that confusion up is utterly insane some days . They lived and continue to live a distorted life until it clears for some . I’ll give you an example . I asked H when I first found out why he cheated . H in one of his many spews said I felt like our marriage was over . I said why ? He said he felt like we co -existed and gave me a long list of everything I don’t do for him . I didn’t respond to much of it . Wasn’t wasting my breath. I waited now and re-asked the question . H - something was wrong with me I felt alone and chasing something that wasn’t real and realize now I should have just put the energy into my marriage. You are exactly the same person you have been . You just don’t ignore me as much anymore . Truth dart thrown - you are home and not cheating so I won’t ignore you . H agreed and said I don’t know how you even deal with me . I can say this was not a thing that changed in the last 6 months . This was 4-5 years of chaos to start seeing a shift that has stuck for the first time in a very long time . It is nothing you did or didn’t do . It is excuses they use to fuel their fires . H openly has said you made it easy to run when you would get upset at something . It got extremely hard to run when you started not even saying a word and got up to do your own thing like you didn’t even care . Stay your course Grok you are doing really well . I keep up with your posts and read some of the old threads .
When I went to bed last night . It was the first day that I noticed that nothing has triggered me since bomb drop . Even the few months before bomb drop when he wasn’t cheating . I still had triggers and anxiety . Day by day they get better .
