S12's birthday today! He is now officially S13. I have three teens in the house
We did presents opening this morning. (Good God! that battery powered nerf gun shoots hard! ... that's why eye pro is included in the box...) D17 was primary decorator. D17 and I shopped over the last week. D19 took him to Universal theme park yesterday, just the two of them, for the whole day. I paid his half.
D17 has a friend who makes cakes so I ordered one from her. It looks great! We'll do the cake tonight when XW is over bringing D17 home.
Aftershock triggers ...
Caligirl, it's been kind of eclectic. I wonder sometimes if it isn't a combo of a trigger and an internal build up that must be released. Things that point to the void between what is and what should have been. Some recent experiences ... and writing them down now brings some tremors.
- OM related...
Not so much anymore, but just like you mentioned, things that made you wonder. See her madly messaging in her car. Hear a small airplane fly overhead ("oh, OM flies overhead to show he's thinking of me").
- In church yesterday.
D17 and I entered and saw Grandpa sitting in a pew waiting for us. We sat beside him of course.
In the sermon... Upon returning to origin, without spouse. Bitterness.
Ruth 1:20-21
“But she said to them, “Do not call me Naomi; call me Mara, for the Almighty has dealt very bitterly with me. I went out full, and the LORD has brought me home again empty. Why do you call me Naomi, since the LORD has testified against me, and the Almighty has afflicted me?”
BANG trigger. I couldn't breath. Aftershock.
I do/did feel that way. I GET how she felt. Every issue XW raised could have been straightforwardly worked through. Are they distortions due to OM? or am I such a failure that the LORD has testified against me, and the Almighty has afflicted me?
But Naomi was not yet seeing the bigger ends and the blessings…I.e. Ruth was with her. And that was not the end of the story ....
- Music does it for me also.
I am an 80's kid...(Thanks DnJ for the Chicago 17 reminder ) Here's one from the other day, a new release from an 80's band. Such a cheerful pop synth sound woven with a touch of Melancholia (def. a condition characterized by markedly depressed mood, bodily complaints, and sometimes hallucinations and delusions). Playing of the themes earlier discussed of death and divorce. There is a lot of overlap. Substituting in the XW for "Mum and Dad" in the lyrics and see what you think.
It got me on first listen. I like the song. I can't listen without tremors. Yet. Catch 22.
Say Goodbye To Mum And Dad - by Tears for Fears
Say goodbye to Mum and Dad Say hello to all the ghosts of Leningrad Everything is up for grabs Go tell all your friends society's gone mad
God is wise and Jesus loves us all
It's no life, this island of fear When tomorrow comes We'll brave the wild frontier Get out this place Inside, outside, nowhere to hide When tomorrow comes We'll face the great divide
Say goodbye to Mum and Dad (Say goodbye to what we had) It's a dusty road of faded photographs Wipe that welcome from the mat (Walk the dog and feed the cat) Things are broken and they're never coming back
God is wise and Jesus loves us all
It's no life, this island of fear When tomorrow comes We'll brave the wild frontier Get out this place Inside, outside, nowhere to hide When tomorrow comes We'll face the great divide
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H:55 XW:50 D19, D18, S13 ILYBINILWY 3/23 DB1 4/23, rescinded 5/23, DB2 6/23 ("I can't do this, I Love HIM") Legal Mediation 1-5 & W leaves 8/23 – 3/24 Settlement 5/24, Court 9/11/24 <-, D 9/16/24
) Here's one from the other day, a new release from an 80's band. Such a cheerful pop synth sound woven with a touch of Melancholia (def. a condition characterized by markedly depressed mood, bodily complaints, and sometimes hallucinations and delusions). Playing of the themes earlier discussed of death and divorce. There is a lot of overlap. Substituting in the XW for "Mum and Dad" in the lyrics and see what you think. 
