It is difficult learning to trust again. Finding trust again. Feeling trust again.
It’s very common to wall up one’s heart against all the pain. It takes purposeful effort to keep one’s heart protected, and yet still soft and squishy. To not allow one’s heart to harden.
A hardening to the possibilities. A hardening to hope.
It takes time. Even an ‘act as if’ decision/choice. It’s counterintuitive. To open up to maybe getting hurt. Yet, maybe something far better.
A bit of a beginner’s mind is required. To see more what is presently before you, rather than behind you. That’s not to discard or disregard that which occurred, no sweeping under the rug, just embracing the opportunity. Slowly discovering how genuine and sincere H’s positive efforts truly are. While discovering how to reconcile what did happen.
The windshield is much bigger than the rear view mirror. Yet, what one focuses on will appear largest.
For what it’s worth, I think you’re doing fine.
Hope you have a great day.
D
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
