Returning newbie here

[lonelee]

My husband is such a dumb individual! He started texting me as I stated previously, and saying all these things that of course I wanted to hear from him. I was actually thinking he was having second thoughts. In his mind HE thought he was helping me by telling me about all the great things we had and wondering if he was making a mistake. DUH. But then said well I'm not saying I'm NOT going to stop seeing her. I totally fell for it. I forgot the believe nothing what they say and half of what they do. I actually asked him if he was that dumb, to think that he was actually helping me by saying all the good stuff about us. I stated it was BS. And that all of that was him helping himself feel better! It has been a difficult time for me being embarrassed and humiliated thinking he was changing! To top it off it was our 33 anniversary this past weekend and we did some chatting it was highly emotional for me. He stated out of respect for me he was spends the whole day alone. So BIG of him!

So here I am starting ground zero again and I'm really mad at him and myself because before he started texting me I was starting to feel a bit better like I had more control over my emotions and now I feel deflated! However, I know if I can do it once I can do it again!! I just need to stay furious at him for ONCE in my damn life!!!

Again I appreciate any additional support you all can give because I literally feel very alone in this journey. I have reached out for counselling, and am waiting for call backs as I'm looking for additional support and coping strategies.

Thank you all for listening, again