You are not detached, she stills brings you comfort and it feels good. You don't want to lose that feeling and she is still on a ruder less boat in the middle of a storm. She still wants to have her cake and eat it, there's no incentive for her to not keep things the way they are, she can switch emotionally back and forth between you and OM. She will be mean to you and treat you as an enemy when things have hope with OM and when they have disagreements or things aren't going well she will be kind to you, you will be her comfort pillow. This will go on back and forth, tugging at your emotions and breaking you down slowly. The healing and acceptance process will get delayed and prolonged. She needs to understand she can lose you for good. Right now that's not on her mind. Her apologetic words are theater, she wants you to end it because it removes the guilt from her and allows her the freedom to do what she feels without consequence, although she isn't ready for the consequence of you actually ending it. You need to detach your mood/feelings from her.
