Grief and Gratitude, Grok - Shifting

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Side XW storm notes I forgot.

After the storm in draft. Time to make dinner for the kids. Bacon crumbled into Mac-n-cheese + Broccoli sprouts.

Other XW remarks this last week to which I stayed STFU smooth.

”Last weeks hurricane, I stayed in the RV Park clubhouse. If I stayed this time I’d be dead with the predicted flood surge.”

I had no idea. I didn’t ask. I wondered where her friends were. I wondered where OM was. I wondered if she was trying to prove something on her own. I let it go.

”I moved my stuff out of the RV into my storage units, but I don’t know if I’ll have ANYTHING left after this. NOTHING to come back to.”

I stayed with versions of “OK” or STFU.

Does she have insurance on any of it? I don’t know.

In a short side conversation with D19 about the RV she says, ”I think she does, but honestly, it would be better if it got wiped out.”

Side XW FB notes I forgot.

On FB social media I posted the quote about "a death has occurred" on the date of the court order. Later it occurred to me XW might see it. Huh. It occurred to me later.... I looked in my friends list and didn't see her there anymore. Hmmm...I guess she unfriended me? I had been chatting a bit with the maid-of-honor that week as she is an old friend of mine also. I checked her friend list and XW is not there. ???

I hadn't seen posts from or checked her postings for six months or more. I forget now. I debated briefly with myself about checking now. Why would I? I decided to check just briefly. She is in my life because of our kids. Having a general awareness is important for them at least. And I was curious.

- Not listed by her name anymore, although the direct link has her name if you know it.
- Display name is a steampunk style nickname (historically a minor noble) I gave her many many years ago
- Friends list is blank, NONE listed.
- A series of posts from early September railing against those who she believes to be persecuting her.
- Stating she is not giving up on OM until he tells her directly to go away and doesn't love her.
- Stating she doesn't need anyone's help.
- Stating they are all hypocrites to condemn her behavior.

I closed the tab. I feel no need to look more. I think she is ... In a rowboat in the storm. I feel no need to look again either. I wasn't sure what I would feel.

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