hello all, I've put dating to the back burner until i get my life back on track. I thought finding someone right away would fix my life but that was not the answer. I haven't dated since July and I've been focusing on starting my new career. I've completed my course in cyber security analyst and received my certificate from google. I've hit a roadblock I wasn't expecting. first I'm 52 and I have no experience in cyber security. 2nd there are a lot of people with a college degree and they are young coming out of college. I feel defeated and im not sure how to proceed to get a job in this field.
Also I thought I was fine about my divorce but this week I've sunk into a deep depression. the holidays are coming and it hit me that in 6 years this will be the first Christmas with just me and my daughter. my favorite holiday is Halloween followed by Christmas. I haven't even decorated for Halloween mainly because I live in a apartment and 2nd I don't have the cash to buy decorations. I am buying a Christmas tree and decorate as much as I can for Christmas for my daughter. My question is for those who have gone through divorce how did you get through the holidays? I just started seeing a therapist again because I got insurance and my therapy is free. I'm very depressed and feel like I'm running out of options to survive. I'm on disability but it doesn't cover my monthly bills. I've been living off my 401k and its in 6 months I will be out of money. I have enjoyed my time alone and i know my marriage was toxic so I don't miss my ex wife other then when she treated me good which wasn't often in the end but I miss having a family. I miss that life and it feels like that was my last chance. i don't even have a emergency contact. I feel so alone and lost. thanks for listening.
