Grief and Gratitude, Grok - Shifting

[grok]

Thank you MamaG, DnJ, Mach1, Catman19, Cadet, dunnm, MrP,

Every one of your words help in multiple dimensions/facets of my life. I’ve read them every day as I check in, learn, … evolve. Yes I do take some time to read here every day. That part is easy to do at work LOL.

Lack of posting … well … life. Every time I try to post I end up spending an hour or so thinking and writing … learning what is in me as I write and figure out what I want to say. Even three older kids soaks up all my minutes. I’ve had a long post worth of thoughts I could put down here every single day. Posting ends up at 11p like today.

Too much isolation isn't a good thing...

You stay in one place too long, and you become that place…

I’m not isolating or sending still. Not curled into my shell to cope. No. More like solidifying the current daily routines that work well for me/us and feeling around me for what feels right to be next.

What's up ?

How are things ?

How are you doing ?

Events/stories since last Tuesday include D19 taking S12 to update his clothes as he is growing fast. They also picked out shirts for me! D17 and I going shopping to Marshals to find the last pieces to finish the wall over the piano (decorations and pictures, see my Alt for photos). Working with D17 on HS physics and college Algebra. All three kids coming down with variations of some kind of illness going around (throat, ears, coughing, sniffles, and mild fever). S12’s scout like troop meeting. Groceries, cooking/cleaning, wet vacuuming (ill little dog is peeing on the floor sometimes now). Trivia night at the local brewery. Dermatology (skin cancer checkup) and since I met the deductible this year I had extra moles taken off. Tooth cavity filled and arranged for needed kids appointments that had been forgotten by XW. D19 and D17 had needed fillings since March apparently. The remaining Angora rabbit of XW’s died (she had stopped taking care of it). Regular work every day at my job also. There is more, I’m too tired to remember it all.

And just now at 11:15p S12 comes in to lay down next to me because he can’t sleep.

Oh, and D17 asked me to take her to a Benson Boone concert 3 hrs north of us. (Huh. Not asking Mom). I said yes. I’ll figure it out.

And today/tomorrow extra time to storm prep. Although I’m by the coast, I’m not worried about hurricane Helene. I do take preparations for power and water outages though. The high tide flood surge + rain from the feeder bands can wreak some local havoc.

And now falling asleep typing on the laptop in my bed. I am crashed out for the night. {{{hugs}}} and {{fist bump}} liberally distributed to you all.

Zzzz

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