Boy I wish I could have some of your peaches! I'm a jam maker myself - the curse and blessing of many fruit trees! We don't have bears or deer here, but I do have squirrels, possums and raccoons aplenty. Squirrels ate most of my figs this year. Varmints!
My mom triggers me too - yes, she forget things, and life just gets harder as we age. Hard to appreciate/understand that sometimes. By inviting you for dinner, maybe she just wants to spend time with you. That I can understand. Hard not to fall into those same patterns as we did when we were younger. I just try to remember that my parents won't be around forever when I get frustrated with them.
I would recommend that you try the AD's - they take the edge off and may help you get through a hard time. I took them for a while and they do help. Especially if you're changing jobs - you're going through a lot right now. You're a strong lady but the medication will help you cope with all of this change.
I know you said you're right on the anniversary of BD, but look at how far you have come. You're living, you're moving forward, YOU ARE A SURVIVOR!, and you're trying/learning new things. All without H. And you're doing the work to find you again. It's not easy sometimes, but there's no way around but through. Let's continue to support each other!
Me54, H53 M 23, T 25 S20, S18 BD: April 2024 Moved out: August 2024
Love means not giving up on someone even if they've given up on you.
"Being right is the booby prize of life." - Susan Page