Just adding on some more thoughts I have been processing through . Learning to take time and just work through them . I’m still being hawked at home so a nice break today to have H out of the house working . Starting to really look deep into the post others have written mainly about MLC and depression and loathing . As H continues to just pour a lot out on this end it’s kinda sad to hear how dark he felt for so long , how jealous he was of friendships, accomplishments , bonds or how I handled life . Odd thing was said H stated a started looking at you differently a few months ago , what I wanted in my life it was the first time my head felt on straight and not fogged up in years. I loved my wife and was working on giving us that marriage we both wanted . I wanted to leave because I figured there was no coming back from this one . I validate and say that must have been very hard to go through . So here I sit just trucking along trying to continue to smell the roses and carrying on happily . Plan on spending some time gardening today and just enjoying the sunlight .
