Kind18 - thank you for your encouragement and reminder that he's still very much a lost soul. I am indeed worth more than anything he has to offer. I am not responsible for his happiness, only my own. I do still feel sad at the loss but I genuinely have a good life, largely thanks to the amazing support and advice on here. I'm so thankful I listened and followed it even when it felt wrong to do so.
Am I living my best life? Absolutely yes, but that’s for another thread
I still think you’re being incredibly self aware even in the midst of craziness.
“I do feel sad…” is an interesting statement. Some people think that means they have to DO something.
But you don’t. It’s okay to be sad about something. It’s a normal human emotion, completely normal and healthy in the circumstances. I wish more people could say “I’m sad, but that’s okay” and not let it be a catalyst for thinking they have to make a choice or act on it.
You can be sad - about what once was, or who you thought he was, or your broken dreams of the future. But he’s not done an ounce of looking inward, and that’s the real litmus test of whether it’s worth getting involved in this train wreck again.
It’s great you’re working on mindfulness. The connection between brain and body is so important. Also, are you exercising?
