Of course I wrote this yesterday and I also started a 40 standing devotional yesterday and today after I got to work I had this supper impulsive want to call and talk to him about where we are in working on us. i know it wouldn't do any good so I called and txted some friends that i have met through this that are fellow standers and the trough all the advice I give them when they feel like that right back at me. I have learned not to talk to anyone about this that does not understand MLC or support my standing. I will make me a mess if I listen to those people that give advise for a rational situation because mlc is everything but normal and rational. Finally calmed down a bit. I still feel the pull to talk to him but have it under control and know it would just set this back.
One thing I have learned from reading stories from so many that have been in MLC is that not a single one woke up from a conversation or when we are begging. They have only woke up when when they felt loss and they knew they needed to once they were far enough along in this process.
The weeks feel like months to us. And according to mlc stories the months feel like days to them.
I will give him that I have seen improvements on a few things though from pre MLC and that is his blowups on the kids, Ant that to me is one of the most important thing.
