Fear is still very real over here - step 1 is admitting it....and now to resolve it.
I've packed most of H's closet and it amounts to his truck's load. There is more stuff but I need boxes. I can figure this part out.
Here comes my need for help. H text today saying he's hoping to come by one day this week after work to grab clothes. I haven't responded to him just yet. I am inclined to inform him via text that 'To help him, I packed up his personal belongings for him.' in advance of (rather than then at arrival of) H coming and learning that I packed his stuff up. I recognize my desire to tell him via text comes from fear and I can feel my anxiety building just thinking about how he may react if he isn't aware prior to coming to the house.
If you feel that it's wiser/better/kinder/more personal to inform him in person, can I ask you to give me words to share my 'packing his stuff' news with him? How do I tell him that I packed up his belongings?
Also, H doesn't know about poison ivy and his last sighting of me was with my arms all wrapped up. When H comes this week, do I wear a long sleeve shirt to hide the healing but blemished arms? If H asks, do I share with him what was/is wrong? Is this a time to be mysterious?
As an observation, H generally avoids coming to the house on weekends. And, as a second observation, H tends to text on Mondays...after the weekend.
H has mentioned that he works on Sat and then does nothing on Sun. Strange? Common for MLCer? Avoiding 'time' to be around longer than a weeknight after work?
On a personal note, I had a couple proud moments - I learned to fix many a things around this house. Picked up a few things at a box store and fixed the sprinklers which were watering the street unnecessarily & fixed the running toilet. I'm still working on getting air out of the water pipes but haven't given up. Really miss my handy man but I'm stepping in and stepping up. D was so proud of me when I shared these accomplishments with her. We laughed.
