Hi Exquisite, I'm rarely here these days, so just now seeing your post. It's good to read what you're up to and how your life is now.
I used to need to know the meaning or reason for something. If I could understand the why, I reasoned, then it would be easier to let it go and move on.
That's BS. My need to know was an attempt to control an outcome. Deep down I thought that if I could understand the why, then I would be better able to protect myself from it ever happening again.
That's not how life works.
I'm now someone who no longer needs to understand MLC, and I'm someone who is grateful every day that I no longer need to understand it.
It is what it is.
The gift is that I've found great peace in not needing to understand any of it.
The energy I used to spend on trying to understand it is now spent on creating what I want in life. It's been a slow process for me, but progress nonetheless.
I'm glad you and your kids are doing well!
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver