Interesting evidence on emotional capacity and focus of a WW/WAW... While I am away she has come over more hours to be with the kids. D19 has been breaking down in tears a lot this last week in dealing with the stress, frustration and pain of the ongoing illness and fever. In my couple hours of FaceTime/online games with the kids this evening
D19 says, "I don't think mama can handle my crying. It's not like I want to. She HAS to walk the dogs, get something from the car, or anything when I'm crying." G, "Well, she is dealing with her own issues right now D19. You can call me and cry. It's OK. You can let it out. I'm strong." D19, "OK dad....I know, just....."
Well, I don't always feel strong. I will be to these three though. Man Up G.
W? I reviewed the doorbell camera to check on D19's impression. Yes, walking the dogs. Yes, exiting the house to sit in her car for a while. Yes, exiting the house to the front porch to apparently message OM (I know some of those behaviors) or something she didn't want infront of the kids for 20 minutes at a time.
The Feels
Perhaps I am melancholy, alone time in the hotel on business travel after I've ensured the kids are all given love, chores done, and in bed. Echoing D19, "it hurts" So a little club dance mix on the theme --- take a listen and you'll hear it.
Monument - The Inevitable End Version by Röyksopp feat. Robyn
This will be my monument This will be a beacon when I'm gone, gone, gone When I'm gone, gone, gone When I'm-
Make a cast of my body Pull back out, so that I can see Let go of how you knew me Let go of what I used to be
So that when the moment comes I can say I did it all with love, love, love All with love, love, love All with love, love, love, love, love All with love, love, love
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H:55 XW:50 D19, D18, S13 ILYBINILWY 3/23 DB1 4/23, rescinded 5/23, DB2 6/23 ("I can't do this, I Love HIM") Legal Mediation 1-5 & W leaves 8/23 – 3/24 Settlement 5/24, Court 9/11/24 <-, D 9/16/24
