MLC Hubby wants to move out

[MamaG]

Hi RegretfulLA!
Sorry to meet you (boy that sounds odd, doesn't it)?! Glad you had a great vacation especially considering the circumstances.

Stopping in to tell you that the way you describe that hug and kiss definitely resonates over here.
Some days the hugs were warm and somedays they were so empty.

he gave me a hug and kiss but at first turned his head and the hug was absolutely empty. I felt so rejected and awful. The man makes me feel terrible and I owe myself so much more. The fact that I put up with it makes me feel even worse - like I have no dignity, like I am desperate. I am normally anything but a doormat.

I guess it is time to admit that I *might* be happier without him. Right now I'm not seeing this situation resolving without a separation.

I have these days...."might" be happier without him. H and I are no longer living under the same roof. While his move out day was one of the hardest days of my life, in hindsight, it may have been the best thing that H could've done for my mental health. As LBSes, holding back our feelings and thoughts and words isn't easy - I know you know! Having your own place will allow you to offload feelings, thoughts and words without H being around to hear/see it all. And, H may very well learn what you bring (and H is losing) in life.

Still, after centering myself, I stand for our marriage. Maybe you will too. Maybe you won't. As a newbie, I'd tell you that you're not convincing me that you'd be happier without him especially since your sentence includes the quoted word "might".

Dig for patience and compassion - I know you have practice in this space. Hugs and prayers to you.