Thanks mamaG I am being patient. I will have to say I have come a long way from when my sitch started, which is a testament to my relationship with God, as a matter of fact the last time I saw my H he said I had changed.
I have read your thread and at times I can see myself in them. This forum has helped a lot with understanding, knowledge and distraction. My hope remains in God and his plan for my life.
Dnj, I love when u respond to my questions, you're very informative and I never feel like I'm being chastised. Thanks for being a shoulder to lean on.