Hello friends, near and far. I'm DBing and embracing it. It's still hard, but I'm embracing it and feeling good about it. Spent 4 hours with my dad's side of the family yesterday. LOTS of cousins and aunts/uncles. I LOVED every second even though I was afraid they'd ask where H was. They may or may not know, but I had to prepare myself for what I'd say. I'm still not admitting the fact that H lives down the road. Is that denial?
Anyway, only one aunt/uncle couple asked if H was hurt or what was reason for not attending (H always attended and was enjoyable). I responded with H's job requires him to work sometimes so H couldn't come. That was the only interrogation - I feared more than that and considered not attending. SO glad that I decided to go. Laughs and hugs all around. So many memories shared. Truly a great afternoon with my fam and a reminder that I don't need H to enjoy life.
The cousins are even planning to go visit one of the cousins who flew in. A vacation with the cousins sounds awesome! What a win.
Question for my virtual family - I have a f/u appt this week that I know H will expect to attend. Please help me answer the following questions as I expect that will be this week's flavor of CB (clingy boomerang).
What time can I pick you up for appt? What did you learn? What did dr say? (since H won't be attending)
