Is guilt the reason/driver for wanting to take me to all doc appts? I would be more comfortable making a decision on 'letting' H take me if I knew the reason was a touch-n-go attempt. If H doesn't know how to approach me and is beginning to see the light, I would be willing to spend time with H for the day (surgery day). I'd see it as an oppty to demonstrate (again) the 180 I've done. But if I'm alleviating his guilt and H likes to see me vulnerable....crying....scared, etc., I'm not interested. I'd like H to take me but am strong enough to decline if H's interest is 'saving' him from rock bottom.
