Just popping in and read about your loss, D. I'm so very sorry to read about the loss of your cousin. I have unfortunately experienced that myself, and it's very painful to think of someone you love and grew up with being in so much despair that they feel this is their best option. I tried my best to help my cousin, but it wasn't enough. It's such a very tough thing to wrap your mind and heart around.
I will say that eventually I was able to come to some level of peace with it, but it took a good while. His parents and siblings didn't. Frankly, I don't know how they could. He's been gone 25 years, and I still think of him and hope he's found the peace he couldn't find here. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Again, sorry for the delayed response, but I am very rarely here these days.
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
