update. I moved into my own place last monday. it was really tuff because i had my daughter for spring break and we spent most of the week moving and unpacking i feel bad because i didnt get to spend quality time with her. i had to spend 7000$ moving in and buying furniture and basic necessities. i basically had my daughters bed a few pieces of furniture that my wife didnt want. a good laptop and a vacuum cleaner.
i havent been able to correctly grieve living with my wife as she was becoming more and more toxic. my daughter went back to her moms tonight and its really sinking in for me and my daughter that its actually over. at least i had my daughter with me but now shes back at her moms im all alone. its the first time ive been alone since 2001. ive been crying since i dropped her off im hurting so bad i feel so alone right now. i dont miss my wife i miss my family. my daughter told me during the week that she worries that im going to commit suicide because im all alone. ive tried to hide my pain from her but even at 11 she is incredibly intuitive. i assured her that i would never do that and leave her without a dad.
my wife still hasnt turned in the divorce papers. shes being very cruel about the whole thing. i told her i want to get this done so we can move past this and heal. she has nothing to gain by stalling.
