thank you both. I have been reflecting a lot on my actions - they were ultimately emotional, selfish and have more been promoting the contrary to what I am trying to achieve.
I apologised today for my outburst. She accepted this, but later told me she is uneasy around me and would still like to see how we can separate. To me, I realised over the past couple of days (including through counseling) that the most important thing to me is to be with my children every single day.
No more actions that go against that. I love my children more than anything and will be there for them. GAL will require me pushing myself beyond what I am already doing, but that is now the next step.
