Something that helped me, at least in some sense, was to tell myself every day that today could be the last day I am married. It helped sober me to the reality that it could be ending and stave off the desperation.
You're doing a log of things well. Now you need to be an attractive person and you need to GAL: get a life. Get out and get living with fun and friends. Don't make this time all about her. Don't dwell on what she's doing. Don't let her know just smartly what you're up to either. Let her wonder.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.