Second roller coaster ride (part 3)

[Pattnee5]

DnJ such wise words as always with the dopamine and the scattered brain etc. I am nowhere near ready for any new relationship when I still carry so much hurt so much baggage and still so much love for my dysfunctional H. As nice as the moments of admiration and flirting and sexual contact are, and as much I am craving to be hugged or kissed or touched, I do look upon myself as a 42 year old female and know where my values etc stand and to be honest right now I am in no state to dedicate my heart to anyone her. So me giving it away would really be unfair and me trying to use a bandaid. Now card, I’m not saying the same is happening for you but you really have to go deep within and ensure you are truly ready for that, or if it’s just a superficial bandaid while your wounded heart heals. As a female I would hate to be involved in a partially broken man, so I too feel any man that I get involved in doesn’t deserve a partially broken version of me. They deserve the real me, the amazing me, the healed me because that’s the version that’s going to stick and go a long way. Conversations
Are amazing but I am finding them elsewhere rather than in the arms of men. That’s for H to do his superficial affair crap and live with that for the rest of his life. For me I think my heart is one hell of a precious thing and only the best deserve it,
So before I give it away I wanna ensure it’s in the best possible state to give it