Aphexx, you're focusing on her and not yourself. That's what I tried to get you to see in my last response to you.
A watched pot never boils. Until you take your laser focus off of her you'll never have a chance of even considering reconciliation.
Stay busy. Yes I know you are disabled, but busy is as much in mind as in body.
you're absolutely right. its difficult because we are still in the same house and sleeping in the same bed. we haven't told the kids yet until i find a place. unfortunately my latest health decline set that back and i cant afford normal housing. we still have our family and wedding pics up as to not alert the kids.
