Aphexx, you're focusing on her and not yourself. That's what I tried to get you to see in my last response to you.

A watched pot never boils. Until you take your laser focus off of her you'll never have a chance of even considering reconciliation.

Stay busy. Yes I know you are disabled, but busy is as much in mind as in body.

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018