Thank you. The worst part is I know I shouldn't and I have come so far in it. Sometimes something just hits wrong and I don't even notice I am till I did. I guess that is how it is for them sometimes too. This is the first time since him coming home I have said something about him leaving. I know throwing it in his face isn't going to help. After all he already knows what he did and is now just looking for reasons to justify it. I did good last night and this morning just making myself sparse and leaving early to go to the gym. I know I haven't been in this as long as others but 2 years before bd and affair and then 17 months after is beginning to wear on me. However I know a lot of people give up just before the break through so I have been "one more day"ing it every day hoping that will get through.
