This is a very lonely time. W is very tense and quick to anger, constantly complaining about the kids or how she “does everything for everyone”. I do my best to fully engage w the kids, work, and my social life but at times it’s still very isolating. Still dealing with the dilemma of living w a woman I find very attractive but who is not interested in me. It’s so odd, because she checked out years ago and I just didn’t realize it. I clung to the odd weekend here and there when we were connecting, hoping the trend was being reversed when in reality it’s much more complicated than that.
Every day feels the same now. I want to move forward with a fun and dynamic life but W is like a weight preventing me from doing that. Normally I spend January booking our family vacation for the year but right now I’m not doing that, because so much is up in the air. Very frustrating.
