I hear you Rock. I’ve used other similar approaches over the last two years and what I’ve found is that you can fool yourself into thinking that all of your GAL and 180s are for you, when you’re really hoping they get noticed by your W. This weekend I felt real detachment: I went to see a friend DJ and I wasn’t thinking about W, or my life without her post D - just enjoying the time.
I’m hoping for more of that. A lot of GAL stuff I had been doing was forced: act as if, fake it till you make it - anything to create physical space b/w me and W. Now it’s starting to feel more like MY life: this is how things will be for me from now on.
