I am closer than ever to your perspective Kind. I really am not wanting her to have any part of me. I don’t want that M that led to this and I don’t want to be around her at all.
I am about DB. I don’t know for how much longer. I haven’t gotten to that decision point yet.
I am loving my freedom. I still wear my ring. Helps to remind me of my vows and reinforce my integrity. I get tempted to stray. There are friendly and attractive women all over the place.
At times it’s very hard to imagine if and how the M might be restored if ever and it might not. That’s not the point of my actions now.
I am acting like that won’t happen and I still remain open at least for now and hope for restoration.
