However, there is no doubt that my exploration of psychedelic substances was bad for my marriage. Though it was actually good for me, it was very bad for my relationship. I am still interested in exploring my consciousness via psychedelic substances.
Translated:
“I know drugs ruined my marriage. But I like drugs. I still choose to take them knowing my wife doesn’t like it and feels unsafe. Please help me get my wife back even though she’s my second highest priority.”
Don’t know why you’re here to be honest. You have a clear choice to give yourself a small chance at saving your marriage, and you are refusing to make that choice.
That’s okay, you’re an adult and you’re free to choose whatever you want.
But from the cheap seats, your choices are not congruent with coming to this website.
Not gonna lie, this one stung a bit. When you said in your first post on my story that you thought we had a good chance at saving our marriage, it was one of the happier moments in the past 8 months.
I really appreciate your perspective. However, it is really confusing to me. I haven't had a drink in over 10 1/2 years. I quit smoking maybe 3 or 4 years ago. In the past 3 years I have done LSD 3 times (twice in the past 2 months), and Psilocybin once. 12 years ago, I was drinking a 12 pack a day and a case on the weekend days. I am confronting my emotions now. In the past I was running from them. I don't feel a chemical dependence like I did in the past.
My wife is more important to me than psychedelics. I have to disagree with you and say that it was depression that destroyed my marriage, not drugs. I feel sad that you don't think I belong here. I have really tried my best to be as open and honest as I can be. I accept the mistakes that I have made, and there have been many. I am open to trying basically anything. I came here looking for guidance and support. My way of doing things wasn't working. If you truly believe that I don't belong here, that hurts. I was really excited to post on here. I am doing my best.
