You definitely have nice guy syndrome. She is verbally and written abusive to your and you put up with it.
"I refuse to be spoken to like this." Then hang up or walk away. Be firm. But angry it emotional, but firm. Turn off your phone or turn off notifications for calls and texts from her.
You are tolerating her disrespect and when you finally stand up for yourself (hanging up on her) you feel bad?!? Seriously??
7, you have no hope of ever successfully reconciling with this woman, nor should you!, until you command (notice not demand) her respect. You do that by refusing to tolerate disrespect from her.
The biggest problem is your make yourself too available to her. Be so busy you can't engage with her this long. "I have to go." Or "I have somewhere I need to be."
Do not apologize. Do not allow her to suck you in. Leave.
You simply cannot reconcile with a woman that doesn't respect you. It's impossible.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
