Ended up making my own plans and not attending NYE party. W went nuclear when I told her I wasn’t going, accusing me of dating a woman and asking who I had plans with. I didn’t share. I’m not sure the details and timing were ideal/perfectly on target but the decision seems directionally accurate to me. I felt good & at peace with the decision. I’m sure there will be fallout over the coming days. I tried to STFU as much as possible and leave the room during the inquisition(s) but she was stalking me several times. She’s more upset about this than anything I can remember in our marriage to date. I’m taking that behavior as somewhat positive that at least she still cares. Anyway, not putting much stock in this since it’s becoming clearer to me just how long the road would be for us if we did Reconxile. And that she’s not remorseful or even circumspect in the least. Either way, I feel my self respect growing and staying calm when she’s boiling over and accusing me of things. Also mentioned the phone and that didn’t ruffle many feathers.
Made a promise to myself to revisit the same grounds I went to tonight (caught fireworks, went to dinner, etc) next NYE to review how things changed in the coming year.
