Jessie, you cannot allow all this to be swept under the rug. You should not even entertain him returning to the marriage without dealing with everything. This is why it's important to have requirements for reconciliation. Now, most LBSs, and LBWs in particular, bristle at this notion. They see it as a barrier to reconciliation, and so out of fear won't do this.

Here is the thing, if you do not require certain things from him before you consider reconciling then you will simply be kicking the can down the road, and you'll be setting yourself up for another bomb day.

Some suggestions:

He agrees to IC to deal with his PTSD.
He agrees to MC.
He agrees to full transparency. This means you gave full access to his accounts and devices. He agrees to a mutual tracking app on your phones.

This is important Jessie. Have the list ready to go in case he continues towards wanting to reconcile.

Trust me on this one, not having a plan in place like this is setting you up for future pain. I've been there and.done that.

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018