I went running on xmas day and Strava reported I had my third fastest 5k time ever. That might not sound super impressive but my online logs cover 11+ years. So I was knocking down efforts that were a decade old and ten pounds lighter. Anyway, made me feel good. I had totally quit running for the three years up to BD and only started again after BD.
One thought I had in re-reading & reflecting on my own post… her wedding ring! When she first took it off a few months ago I would say something or ask her about it or move it on the dresser so it was more visible—like she wasn’t wearing it because she forgot/didn’t see it. LOL (at myself in hindsight). I used to get quite upset and obsess about it way too much. But thinking about it more over the last couple days I realize it’s like a warning signal now. She wears it occasionally, I think to (1) try to reel me in when she’s feeling insecure or (2) around friends who don’t know about affair (and wanting to spare judgment) or (3) when she wants to try to manipulate/control me because she knows it meant a lot to me. For instance, she wore it for the first time in a week and a half last Friday when she started crying and asking for more attention. The story above. I saw her wearing it today and thought to myself… ‘this little birdie is up to something today, beware!’ The irony is that now it’s a dead giveaway and works more against purposes her than for her. Maybe one day in the future it can come to symbolize something pure again.
Also, good point about babysitter. Geez, that seems obvious in hindsight.
I poorly communicated the OM sleeping situation/details and L, will clarify that in a post later tonight or tomorrow. Again, thanks for everyone who read or replied to the post. I know it’s a busy time of year!
D7 and I are flying to visit grandparents tomorrow for a few days.
