Hi Mia, You've gotten alot of good advice here. It can be difficult to follow for sure.
The crying, begging, pleading, nagging... it all comes from a place of pain. Pain from being rejected, The Pain of realizing the one you love doesn't want to be with you anymore.
Denial can be very strong. No one faults you for that - we all have been there. No one expects you to accept your marriage is over today. We didn't do that either.
It's a process and it takes time. GALing, Detaching - these are things that help you emotionally.
I'm also going to add that its okay to grieve. To scream. To Cry your eyes out. It's recommended on here to do it away from your H. This is for your benefit. Nothing adds salt into a wound than crying your eyes out to a partner who is unable to comfort you.
But make time for it. The only way out - is through... as sh!tty as that is. One day at a time. One hour at a time. And sometimes one minute at a time.
I hope you will continue to post. We truly know what you have been through.
((Hugs))
M(f): 43 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
