Hi Mia - As others have suggested, the current relationship sounds toxic and abusive. The most recommended course of action here will be to focus entirely on caring for yourself and your kids. Many of us come here retaining hope we can save our marriages. It may or may not happen. The only person we can control is ourselves. You say you've read MWDs books so you likely know this already. It's time to act "as if" you're moving on. Follow Sandi's rules. As others suggest, find friends, hobbies, and other interests you will enjoy. I suspect you'd benefit greatly from drafting some concrete boundaries that will help YOU regain your footing and protect you. We're all here to help brainstorm solutions, offer support, and provide a (mostly - we can have biases at times) neutral audience for you. As Steve suggests, we are all hoping for nothing but the best for you.
