I'm so very sorry to read this. You have a lot to carry right now, and nothing I can say is going to make that any easier.

We truly can't save anyone - especially an active addict - but we can save ourselves. If I have one suggestion it would be alanon - people mistakenly think that when the addict is no longer alive or in their life that the damage is over or there's nothing they can do about it, but that's not true - there are things you can do to heal yourself as you walk through your grief. I'm so very sorry for your loss. xo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver