Bitter Pill

[Bunches]

Having to work through the sale of our home but I'm drawing back from work for now. It always took up so much of my time but for now I'd like to be a little more selfish with my time. I'm looking at community college for some growth. I've joined a mens group at our church. Plans to do some activities with our boys through the holidays. I'm also planning for a pilgrimage in April to step away and get myself right at heart. A lot of grief to process and feelings to resolve.

As for helping the boys I'm limited. Her boys had to immediately move to their fathers home so I can only see them sometimes. The youngest ones have been here a couple times and they have fun for the most part but when it gets quite they get sad. All you can do is be there for them and let them cry. Our older boys are struggling in different ways. They had discovered their moms issues with meds and knew she was spending time with other men. We talk about it but they struggle with what to do with their feelings now. They spent the last couple months confronting their mom over her choices and weren't in a good place with her when she died. It's all just so messed up. It's going to be a work in progress for some time.