Mine did that. Ironically, one of the things I’m most grateful for 👏👏👏
I’m guessing with what he’s doing, you’re better off not seeing it.
He doesn’t care about your feelings. Or your kid’s feelings when they realise. You need to stop this self talk of “doesn’t he realise what he’s doing, what the kids are seeing etc.” HE DOESNT. And won’t for a long time.
He’s in complete emotional turmoil, and the only thing he cares about right now is himself. The sooner you realise his sh***y behaviour isn’t directed at you, the sooner you’ll learn to compartmentalise what’s going on.
It’s going to get better mate. This is the worst bit.
I guarantee you in a month, a year, five years… you’ll feel better than you do right now.
You can’t accelerate his bin fire MLC craziness. But you can accelerate your recovery. You can struggle on for years, or you can get some intensive therapy and get there much faster.